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Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Frustrated.

I have this unrealistic idea that when I started working out that my weight would just melt away. I was almost at my goal weight when I was breast feeding and I did nothing. I ate junk food and I did not work-out. I know that I am only on my second day of this new routine but how did I gain 2 lbs overnight?? I don't know what else to say about it. I usually think of myself as a patient person but why can I just be happy that I am trying to be healthier? Why do I only think of my success as a number? I ran 3 miles today on my elliptical. Why can I not be happy about that achievement? It also did not help that yesterday, my co-worker brought cake and muffins to work. I joined "The Biggest Loser" at my work. I am praying this gives me the motivation I need to keep track on my diet.

Work has been absolutely insane. I didn't get home till 6:30 last night. It seems I am staying later and later each week. I can't complain because I am making more money now and it will help will the bills. I just want to be home with my boy. That's all I want.

Caleb is doing great with his sleeping. He doesn't cry as long or as loud as before. This is going much easier than I would have thought. He is getting more active which is wonderful. However, it is getting to the point where I am thinking of getting a baby-sitter for Tuesday nights while hubby and I are at small group. I feel that we are not able to be fully engaged in the study because Caleb is running around and getting into things. I would like someone to be home with him to give him his bath and put him to bed at a decent time. I can't think of anyone that would do this for me. I don't want to ask my in-laws because they watch him a lot, and most of my friends go to group on Tuesdays. Oh well, something else on my to-do list.

2 comments:

cara said...

Take it easy on yourself. The weight will come off if you remained disciplined. You've worked out twice! That's great! I did the same thing with losing weight while breastfeeding and I just ate so much junk food the weight came back fast! Glad to hear Caleb is sleeping better!

Sarah said...

I second what Cara said! Only weigh yourself once a week (or maybe even less often than that!). Make Michael hide the scale so you're not tempted. As for work, I'm with you. I'm working a lot this week but I know that it will calm down eventually. I do miss Kinsey, but I find I honestly do treasure the time I have with her more on weeks I work a lot than on weeks I don't. So glad to hear about his sleeping! Anytime you have questions, please ask...it helped me a ton to ask Cara and Heather and Leatrice and anyone I could get to listen to me about her sleep! As for babysitting on Tuesday night, maybe we can brainstorm and come up with a solution!