Wow, I can't believe Caleb is 17 days old! I can't describe how much love I have for this little guy. He has my heart. I can't wait to see him grow up in the man God wants him to be. I hope I am up to the task.
The first week was a challenge. Let me just say, breastfeeding is HARD! I had no idea how difficult it would be. Caleb had a hard time learning to latch on. It would take him about an hour to get a good latch. I had no idea that I had that much patience. He would be fine at the beginning of the feeding, but by the time a latch was established, he would be screaming (as I cried). After about a week of dealing with that, sore nipples, and bits of my nipple being bitten off (yeah, I have pieces missing), i cried at the thought of feeding him. No one told me how hard it was, and I even took a breastfeeding class! I called my mom everyday in tears! I felt like my body failed me. Why could I not feed my child? After talking to my mom and my mother-in-law multiple times about this, I decided to pump. It's not the most ideal thing. It is an inconvenience to pump and feed him but I am so much happier. At least he is still getting my milk. I might try to breastfeed again but I am scared to death.
Other than the breastfeeding issue, everything is going great. I love my little prince. I can't believe how much love I have for him. I can't believe God has blessed us with this little child.
My mom and sister are here visiting. They have been a huge help. I don't know what I am going to do when they leave.
Caleb had his 2 week check a few days ago. He weighs 9 lbs! Wow! He weighed 7 lbs 12 oz at birth. He is getting big. I can't wait till he starts smiling and laughing. I wonder what type of personality he will have. I wonder what he will be when he grows up.
I will end this ramble with a few pictures of our little angel:
