*sigh*

The days seem so long now. It is so ironic. A few months ago, I would kill to have a few quiet moments to myself. Now, I can't seem to find anything to fill the time. I need to print off some photos to start my scrapbook but I can't seem to find the motivation. I am trying to find a job now but I fear it is going to take a while. I want to be in a house now, I want to start my family but everything seems to be at a standstill. I know we have to wait until we have enough money to have a down payment for a house but I guess I don't want to wait. It is so frustrating.

I found out two dear friends of mine are getting a divorce. It has been really hard on me but I can't imagine what they must be going through. Michael and I are so close to them and they helped us along through our relationship. I found myself thinking earlier, "If it can happen to them, could it happen to me?" Michael and I decided to start up our couples' devotional again. I am really excited about that. '

Probably the best part of this week is finally making a career choice. I have been struggling with becoming a nurse. I have always thought of myself becoming a part of the medical profession that I never thought of other career choices. While working in the ER, I realized that this is something that I don't want to do for the rest of my life. I did a lot of praying and realized a path that I would love and can eventually use overseas when Michael and I step into the mission field. I have decided to become an elementary school teacher! It has always been something I wanted to do but I never thought much about it. I am very excited and I can't wait to start it. I have to wait until I become an AZ resident but its ok. Now I need to find someone who wants to but my A&P book!