Through the eyes of a child..

Caleb is coming into that sweet age where he wants to show me everything. I get the "Mom, mom, mom, mom,mom" over and over again through out the day, and to be honest, it gets a little annoying after a while. After many Mom, mom,mom, mom he will finally say, "Mom, LOOK!" and I glance over to make sure that he is not hanging some dangerous object over little brother's head and I just say, "That's nice sweetie" and go about what I was doing. A few nights ago, on our way to church for our small group meeting, I was finishing reading the chapter we were going to discuss. Caleb starting saying, "wow! Cool!". Then it started. "Mom, Mom, Mom, Mom.. LOOK!". I intended to do a quick glance to satisfy my child so I could finish reading. Well, what I had in store was amazing. I look over at my son who is pointing out the most beautiful sunset I have ever seen. I was so busy that I wasn't paying any attention to the beauty around me. It took my sweet child to point it out to me. How humbling is that! Arizona has the most beautiful sunsets out of anywhere I have lived. Unfortunately, you take it for granted after a while. I then looked at my son with tears in my eyes and I thanked him. I thanked him for making me stop what I was doing and showed me something truly beautiful. I then wondered, how many beautiful moments did my son try to point out to me before that I ignored or didn't appreciate because of something so insignificant? It made me realize that the dishes can wait, the vacuuming can wait, but those precious moments with your children are priceless. You will never get those sweet moments back and you need to savor every little "Mom, mom, mom". God used my little Caleb to show me something so much bigger!

20 weeks! Half way there!

How far along? 20 weeks!

Total weight gain/loss? I have gained about 5 lbs.

Maternity clothes? Yep! There are some pre-pregnancy shirts that still fit but the majority of my clothes are maternity.

Stretch marks? Nope. The ones I had with Caleb are still there but nothing new has come up.

Sleep? Very uncomfortable. I am having a hard time finding a comfortable position.

Best moment last week? Feeling baby move.

Movement? Yes! Getting stronger every day!

Food cravings? None right now.

Gender? Boy or girl!

Labor signs? Nope! It better stay that way for a while!

What I miss: Sleeping!

What I am looking forward to: Feeling the baby move more and getting more of a bump.

Milestones: I had my u/s yesterday! Pictures below:

Profile shot
Feet!

Photo on the right : Arms and hands. s/he had his/her arms in front of it's face!

Photo on the left: Profile shot with hand in mouth

Profile shot!

Take your guess! Boy or girl?

16 weeks!!

How far along? 16 weeks 1 day

Total weight gain/loss? I have gained about 2-3 lbs.

Maternity clothes? Maternity pants are a must but I can still wear my regular shirts.

Stretch marks? Nothing new.

Sleep? Not much! I have to take Tylenol PM to get a decent night sleep. It is getting uncomfortable to sleep on my belly which is a bummer since I am an avid tummy sleeper.

Best moment last week? Hearing the hearbeat at my doctor appointment.

Movement? I have not felt anything that I could say for sure was the baby. I felt Caleb move at 18 weeks so I know soon I will be feeling this one.

Food cravings? Not really. I am lucky if I even feel hungry.
Gender? Boy or girl!

Labor signs? No way!

What I miss: Being able to eat a full meal without feeling sick afterwards.

What I am looking forward to: I have my big ultrasound on March 30th!

Milestones: I took my first pregnancy photo today!

I'm Pregnant!

The first round of Clomid worked! We are expecting our newest addition on August 18th! I am thrilled! On December 6th (9dpo), i was going to see a doctor regarding my high fevers and sore throat. I knew it was probably strep throat and I was going to be put on antibiotics. I decided to test that day because some medications are not safe to take while pregnant. I thought it would be negative because I was not expecting my period for another 3-4 days. I shocked to see a very faint line! I went into work for a rapid strep test and a blood test to confirm the pregnancy. The blood test came back positive (as did the strep test)! I took another test on the 9th (the day my period was supposed to start) and it was definetly positive.

We had an ultrasoubd on 12/22 (5w5d) and they saw a little fetal pole but it was too early to see a heartbeat. I went back on 1/5/2012 (7w5d)for another u/s and we saw our baby with a heartbeat! The heartbeat was 156!

I am 8 weeks along today. Now I have to decide whether we will find out the gender at 20 weeks or wait until delivery.

Where do we go from here?

I started my first Clomid cycle a few weeks ago. I have some mixed emotions about it. One the one hand, I know I need "tweaking" so it is perfectly acceptable to start treatment. However, part of me feels like I am taking control out of God's hands into my own. Part of me is excited about this next step but my heart hurts that I couldn't do it on my own. It took us 1 year to conceive Caleb but for some reason, I thought this time would be different. I am trying to stay realistic this cycle. I am afraid to get my hopes up and then have my heart stattered days later. I am trying to take it one step at a time. I go in for bloodwork tomorrow to confirm that I ovulated. That is step number 1.

Next step!

I am now making this blog into a TTC (trying to conceive) blog. So be aware! If you don't want to read about cervical mucous, OPKs and things of that nature then stop now! You have been warned!

We are now in our 3rd month of trying to conceive baby #2. Michael and I have decided that now is the time for the "full court press" (charting and OPKs). If you are interested in following my chart you can either click here:My Ovulation Chart or you can click on my ticker at the top of the page. I am very excited to start this next step. I charted while trying to get pregnant with Caleb and I liked knowing my body and my ovulation cycle. I bought the 20 pack of the "First response" ovulation kits. I never had luck with OPKs before but it was probably because I didn't ovulate until day 28 on some cycles. I hope this time will not be as frustrating as before. I know that I am not as stressed this time around. I know it can take a while and I am not holding hope each cycle. I might be changing my tune in 6 months but for now, I am trying to take it in stride.

Caleb is doing so much better sleeping. We can put him down awake now and he will fall asleep on his own He still like to lay with me during the day when it is time for a nap but I am fine with that.

Two years ago..

Two years ago yesterday is the day I found out I was pregnant with Caleb. It doesn't seem that long ago. After a year of trying, I am now blessed with an amazing 16 month old. It's amazing!

Michael and I are now trying for baby #2. I am excited but I am also afraid of the process. I am trying to be realistic and preparing myself for a long journey. I remember the feeling of failure each month we didn't conceive and I don't want to go through that again. I am going to try and take it in stride and hope to be surprised :)